mean it. cant help it.

ohhh myyyyyyyyy..
it's the sucky study week :(
and then comes exams.. haiz

and i'm wondering what they bought for her~
how does it look like..
mans, stupid measurement day,
of all days it had to be today -.-
i also want to go buyyy :(
nvm.. anyways! can't wait to see it :D
and it's getting nearer.. the day.

anyways, just a random digression;
i never thought it would mean so much to me
i never thought i would care
but somehow i'm afraid for him too
even though it's not exactly my problem
i actually wished things would work out well for them
because i don't want him to be hurt.
and i know how it feels that way.
and i guess he'll never know exactly how happy i was for him
even though he's still irritating at times..
but still, i really hope this time it's right :)
and sometimes i'm envious of them,
because they get to do those things i wanted to.
why couldn't I?
I guess it's stupid but i was happy then, still.
it must have been selective distortion blocking my thoughts
and i wouldn't mind doing it over again.

then.. another one,
haiyaayaa.. don't know what i can do too.
he worries me man,
and he doesn't show his pain or sorrows.
he just act normally everyday.
you know how it sucks to know i can't help..
but the same goes for me i guess. haiz.
but of course i dote on him, always will :)
even though he's still cuter when he's younger xP

and.. that's all for today~
well, should be studying but where's my mood uh?
sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!